Am I going to get the chance to talk to you about this later, or[...] I've been [...] lonely. I feel very isolated here, which is my own fault. I cut a lot of people off when the station shut down. I just couldn't deal with it. And now I'm in this hole I can't get out of and I have no idea what to do about it.
[...] And I feel selfish for feeling that way. [...] He wasn't my brother or my boyfriend. I should be able to deal with it on my own. I have so much other shit to worry about. I shouldn't have to bug you because I'm sad about Gavin.
It's not selfish. You were one of his best friends. He liked you better than he ever liked m[...] And it makes sense that on a day that evokes strong memories, you'd seek commiseration from someone else who loved him, even if that person happens to be me. So let's be logical about this. You say you should be able to deal with it on your own, but isn't dealing with it on your own exactly why you feel isolated? Weren't you also dealing with it alone when you cut everyone off? If the reasonable methods you've tried thus far aren't serving you, then it follows that the solution lies in doing something unreasonable.
I'm notI don't know how toWhat if you forgot about being responsible and[...] Sorry. I wish you had someone better to talk to too.
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Am I going to get the chance to talk to you about this later, or[...] I've been [...] lonely. I feel very isolated here, which is my own fault. I cut a lot of people off when the station shut down. I just couldn't deal with it. And now I'm in this hole I can't get out of and I have no idea what to do about it.[...] And I feel selfish for feeling that way. [...] He wasn't my brother or my boyfriend. I should be able to deal with it on my own. I have so much other shit to worry about. I shouldn't have to bug you because I'm sad about Gavin.
DM, 9/28, pushing midnight
I didn't think you'd actually[...]
It's not selfish. You were one of his best friends.
He liked you better than he ever liked m[...] And it makes sense that on a day that evokes strong memories, you'd seek commiseration from someone else who loved him, even if that person happens to be me. So let's be logical about this. You say you should be able to deal with it on your own, but isn't dealing with it on your own exactly why you feel isolated? Weren't you also dealing with it alone when you cut everyone off? If the reasonable methods you've tried thus far aren't serving you, then it follows that the solution lies in doing something unreasonable.I'm notI don't know how toWhat if you forgot about being responsible and[...] Sorry. I wish you had someone better to talk to too.DM, 9/28, pushing midnight
DM, 9/28, pushing midnight
DM, 9/28, pushing midnight
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But if things feel different tomorrow[...]Be unreasonable again. Goodnight.
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