After Gavin died, I couldn’t imagine you needing anything from me. And I needed so much from you that I was afraid to ask for any of it, because I thought you’d say no and I thought it would hurt. [...] I know it’s stupid, but I convinced myself you wouldn’t care that much if I ended things, and that I was saving us both some grief by pulling the plug on a relationship that felt doomed to me anyway.
In retrospect I wish I’d taken a chance and stuck it out. [...] I wish we could’ve had more time together.
[...] I mean, you weren't [...] wrong. After it happened, I couldn't stand to do anything except focus on my work. I can barely stand it now. I'm not capable of[...]
Maybe I was hurt. Maybe I wanted [...] something else. But mostly I knew you were right to do it.
I know. We’re not very compatible. And we fight a lot. And we both have our own shit to deal with. There are like a hundred reasons why we don’t make sense.
But [...] if you ask me to come over again, I’m going to say yes.
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In retrospect I wish I’d taken a chance and stuck it out. [...] I wish we could’ve had more time together.
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I'm not capable of[...]Maybe I was hurt. Maybe I wanted [...] something else. But mostly I knew you were right to do it.
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But [...] if you ask me to come over again, I’m going to say yes.
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You know, insanity is doing the same thing over and over again[...]
Then come over right now.
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